I’m not going to worry about…

By , December 1, 2011 7:05 am

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  • my work situation – remember that DC detail I was kind of excited about getting, even though I wasn’t sure if it was actually going to happen or how often I would travel to DC? Well, I was all set to start on Monday the 14th when I got back from NYC. I moved to a new desk and everything. Only to get a call that there’s been some restructuring of the program and the new office in charge is not sure if they can use me or not (because they are still trying to get a grasp on the entire project). And that my detail is canceled. I felt like an idiot. Even though I knew the detail could fall through, I had still let myself become excited, and jeez, I thought since I moved desks and all it might be official. I moved back to my old desk yesterday. I can’t explain in words how disappointed and discouraged I am (and I can’t really go in to a ton of details about work here), but… I am happy to have a steady job. 
  • how clean our house is – my mom and dad are coming to visit tonight! And my mom confirmed yesterday that her mother is coming as well. Well, sh*t, I didn’t get the house grandma level clean! I just got it clean to parent level. And focused on putting up some holiday decorations. Oh well, we’ll still have a good time if there is dust on all the horizontal surfaces.
  • my November running mileage – I have not had a running-friendly schedule lately, and I am disappointed I could not get more miles in in November (86.1, my second lowest month of the year). But really, who cares about this crap except for me? That would be… no one. And at this point, I’ve run over 500 more miles than last year, and started December off right with an early morning 8 mile run (Happy December!). Plus – I probably deserved a small break. 
  • holiday gifts – I love picking out gifts for people and watching their reactions when opening them. I try really hard to get people thoughtful, interesting gifts, but I don’t always hit the mark. I just try my hardest. 
  • how fast I lose weight – I just need to lose weight and keep it off. However slow that happens, I don’t care, as long as I can actually keep it off this time. Ha ha ha. Anyone want to bet on that?
  • transit money – our work had to cut a lot out of our transit subsidy at the same time train ticket prices are being increased. It will amount to about $70 a month out of pocket, but hey, I am grateful work pays for any of my transit!
  • the fact that there is no picture to go along with this post

Okay, I can provide a picture. Here is Ryan Gosling in Crazy Stupid Love, a movie Steven and I watched this week and really enjoyed. I recommend it!

Picture from here – that link is pretty funny if you want to click through!

What are you refusing to worry about?

29 Responses to “I’m not going to worry about…”

  1. Kandi says:

    You shouldn’t worry about your November mileage! 86 miles is still a ton compared to what I normally do in a month. In fact, November was a super slacker month for me and I only ran one marathon this fall.
    I’m sorry that work is getting you down. I understand how you feel about lack of motivation when things like that happen. I’m sad about the DC detail too (selfishly).

  2. I’m sorry about your job, Kim! That’s so frustrating and disappointing!

    I hope the time with your parents and grandma cheers you up!

  3. Amy says:

    I can totally relate to this post – I try to keep myself from worrying about all kinds of things…sigh…
    Sorry to hear about the job, that is a bummer. Hang in there!

  4. bummer about the job!! i know how that is with my own job..i try to keep my self in check but it’s fun to get excited and have new things to look forward to

  5. dad says:

    Dust?!? That settles it, I’m staying home.

  6. cindy says:

    Sorry about your job, but sometimes things happen for a reason.I hear you on the weight thing, I’ve been trying to lose the 10 pounds I put on last Christmas. I have a hard time leaving ssweet alone.

  7. Kelly says:

    Hey, sorry the job didn’t work out. That has to be really disheartening.
    And no one will be as harsh on your cleaning as you. What qualifies as a mess in my home (to me) is pretty much cool to most people. I’m sure grandma won’t notice.

  8. Erin says:

    Sounds like we’re both pretty stressed out right now. Like you, I’m trying not to worry about certain things but they still weigh on me. I hope a weekend with your mom and grandma will help some.

  9. Jenn says:

    I’m sorry…I totally had a whole comment to post but got completely side tracked by Ryan Gosling! *Swooooon*

  10. Sometimes its best to not bother worrying about some things. Like for example, the fact that I havent done any dishes for three days and even though I should have tonight to do them, I dont. So I wont have done dishes for four days. Whatever. I’ll just eat with my hands. Its all good. 🙂

    Sorry about the work thing. That really sucks – especially with all the desk moving. Thats such a slap in the face, even if it was something you knew could happen.

  11. Stephany says:

    You are NOT allowed to worry about your November run mileage because HELLO, YOU RAN THE NYC MARATHON IN NOVEMBER!!! You are allowed to have a break. 🙂

    I am refusing to worry about the pounds I have probably packed on between these last two weeks. Thanksgiving and a birthday will do that to a girl and will instead focus on the present.

    Sorry about the job detail. That sucks. 🙁

    • kilax says:

      I think the fact that I ran a marathon, and have the included in the mileage is what makes me feel that way. But really, it’s because I took a week off. And I don’t regret that!

      It’s so hard to eat healthy on your bday! I always go a bit crazy 😉

  12. Kapgar says:

    Sorry about the work gig not, er, working out. And Crazy Stupid Love was a fun movie, indeed.

  13. Christina says:

    I am sorry about your work situation. I know what it is like to have a plan canceled because they did not do enough due diligence. There are so may better thins to focus your energy on. Enjoy your family visit!

  14. I really like this post. You’ve put thought into why these issues are issues at all and now you’re throwing these issues out to the Universe. Off your chest. Hope you can come to closure with at least some of them …

  15. bobbi says:

    I heart your Dad 🙂

    I am NOT worrying about money. Tough time of year for that, but there you have it.

    We need to plan a gab fest…I want to get an idea of what you are planning (races) in 2012…dinner soon?

    • kilax says:

      Yes! We must! I have a small gift I want to give you. I’ll warn you in advance – not much planned for me in 2012! I think there is a 2012 races party next Friday at Terry’s. It looks like a lot of people are going!

  16. My list of worries is ridiculously similar to yours. And you know what? I’m not going to worry about any of it either! Because a lot of it is out of my control.

    P.S. – Thanks for the pic of Ryan Gosling…totally made my afternoon! 🙂

  17. Courtney says:

    LMwAO at your dad!!! He cracks me up!! Hopefully having your parents and grandma there this weekend will help you destress (and I bet grandma will be so excited to see you, Steven, & Data she doesn’t even notice the dust)!!!
    Ugh- ok, I’m not going to worry about- if EC will ever sell!!!! That is my main one!!!
    =^..^=

  18. sorry your work situation has suddenly become more complicated. i hate when i get excited about things and then they fall through. but maybe this means that something bigger and better lays ahead:)

    my house is never at grandma level clean, right now it’s not actually at any level of clean and is a christmas disaster as there are boxes of stuff just waiting for me to tend to. uugh.

    you totally deserved a nice break in the running zone. all of those teeny tiny micro tears in your muscles that have developed over the year are probably thanking you right now. this way you’ll be fully rested and charged to hit 2011 right.

  19. diane says:

    Thank you, I needed this post. 🙂
    I’m not worrying about holiday cards this year. I got 2 last year–no one has time anymore. (Or everyone hates me, ha ha)
    I’m not going to worry about my friend’s screwed up marriage any more. It was her decision, she has to live with it.
    I am not going to worry about the fact I feel like sleeping every night when I get home. It’s winter, my co-worker quit and my team is super over loaded. We’ll get someone hired and it will settle down and I can exercise and be productive sometime in January.
    And please don’t feel like an idiot about work. Disappointed, yes, but not stupid. They really kind of pulled the rug out from under you.

    • kilax says:

      We haven’t been sending cards either 🙁 Every year I think I want to and I never do 🙁

      I am sorry you have so much stress with your friend and at work – and at this time of year! I hope it does calm down in January… or even sooner 🙂

  20. J says:

    Well that stinks about your special detail. That sometimes happens in my job if we lose funding for stuff, and are forced to switch projects quickly. Maybe something else will come up.

    Great job on your mileage! You are totally kicking butt this year with running and I know next year will be even better for you! Keep it up and I am sure you will continue to become faster and lose weight!

  21. ChezJulie says:

    That’s a total bummer about the work detail. Sometimes the idea of a change to the work routine can be really energizing, so then to not have it happen would be a real letdown. Those D.C. folks don’t know what they’re missing!

  22. Mica says:

    Oh man, can you do that carpet shampooing trick from the commercial? The one where the mom just douses the carpet in soap and hoses it down?

    I am refusing to worry about finding a job right now because I’m still over a year out. This sounds really stupid because I SHOULD worry about it, but instead of worrying, I want to approach the process with a clear head and try my best. I don’t think it will do me any good to stress about it, but maybe this is just me speaking from inside the ivory tower.

    • kilax says:

      What work could you even do to find a job right now besides research places? It’s not like you can start interviewing or sending resumes… are other people already doing these things? That seems early!

  23. Laura says:

    86 miles for a month is totally respectable! Also respectable – pictures of Ryan Gosling.

  24. martymankins says:

    My work situation is something that I’ve been able to push worry from my mind earlier on this year. The amount of worry and stress that I have put myself through with this place wasn’t worth it. It’s bad enough I’ve allowed it (and a couple of other personal issues) impact my lack of making videos, which I love to do. And while I’m glad I’m less stressed at work, I would be much happier once I can return to doing the things I love in my personal life.

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