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By kilax, June 23, 2009 9:17 pm

Don’t you love it when you are telling a story to a friend, and they supplement your story with details you’ve told them in the past? Basically, when they demonstrate what a good listener they are to you by recalling little tidbits that relate to the new story?

Don’t you hate it when you remember that that good friend, one of the only two you feel like you can talk to at work, is leaving for maternity leave in a month and won’t come back for at least six months?

Hopefully you can only relate to the first two questions.

I’ve noticed that my work day is significantly better if I feel like I have had some level of personal interaction with someone.

That doesn’t happen everyday. I could reach out more. I just don’t want to overshare.

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By kilax, April 27, 2009 12:11 pm

Do you ever worry about becoming someone you don’t want to be? Maybe you have a specific person in mind, whose actions you simply abhor… or maybe it’s just a collection of traits that you worry about.

I have both – certain influential people in my life, as well as a list of various traits I try to avoid accruing.

Lately, I haven’t been giving my emotions the attention that they deserve. I’ve been very quick to react to things. Rather then stepping back, observing and evaluating, I hastily make decisions, just to try to keep up with the pace of things. I’ve become incredibly impatient. I don’t want to sit still or slow down for a minute.

This is adversely affecting me at work and at home. And I am beginning to worry more and more about turning into someone I don’t want to be.

I know who I want to be: happy, healthy, someone that people think of as “nice,” fun to be around, a good listener, hardworking, reliable, friendly, funny, intelligent, approachable, attractive, easy-going, patient, understanding…

But how do I get there? And QUICK! before I go to far in the other direction!

I’ve noticed that when I actually do slow down and take time to think about what is going on in my head (why I am reacting to things the way I am) I find the cause of the “problem.” But sometimes I just want to ignore it. I just want to avoid it. How awful is that? Here, let me just shut my brain off for awhile and go on autopilot. Let’s see where that gets me. I don’t like where that gets me.